'Prayer Does Not Have To' & other poems
PRAYER DOES NOT HAVE TO
whisper with reverence while clouds
thicken to purple in the sky.
It can percolate, chortle and climb
like Coltrane’s horn in “A Love Supreme,”
probing in fits and squawks, clearing
a path upwards, then knocking over
all stones, until there is no right
of way, no safe passage, nothing
but tympani and bass drowning
all hope in distance. I’ve been
in that room where it’s clear
the storm is on its way, where light
diminishes its chord until harmonies
fall off each other, breathless.
Let the thunder have its say. Open a door
to the sizzling wind. Trust
the score to give each note space,
each need voice, until the whole room
vibrates in half tones, raises itself
into the sky. This loud song
can find a stable key. This kind of noise
can beg light down with a cymbal’s roll.
On the Pass at Manchac
a camp has toppled from its pilings.
Its porch frowns down into the lake.
My son studies weather patterns
for class. His book claims
the wind circulating around us
is the same wind that stirred the sand
around Giza while men were building
pyramids, that swayed the lilies
of the valley and filled sails toward Vinland.
I imagine God sighing into clay
to give it life. Years later that breath
swirls into a storm off Africa,
dances for weeks across the Atlantic
into the Gulf and onto our shore
to nudge a camp off its perch
on the Point, the one place
my mother loved on her drive
back home, always rolling her window down
to feel a breeze in her hair.
SPACE, NOT TIME
All semester I’ve pushed my students
toward space, into the inviting white
the page offers.
Still, they trap themselves
in bunches along the back wall of the room,
bind the lines of their poems to the left margin
where their words can sleep in the security
of the flock.
There’ve been moments
when I’ve c-o-a-x-e-d them to the bow of the ship,
gotten them to look off into the
that lies between where we are and the horizon,
but never, like WHITMAN, have they hung their heads
over the edge to see how their reflections
shimmer in the waves
every direction from the path they cut in the water.
Human nature draws them back to the safety
the pack affords, urges them to horde
their words in a single pile, storing them
for a winter that may never come.
I’m running out
of time to show them the nature of this class,
of this place, is to turn them loose into space.
When the last bell rings, they’ll have to leave
through the door alone,
out into the white light
where all life springs from the
The old people say spirits of our kin
linger in the marsh as blue heron.
They can move only in sunlight.
To fly, they must dry their wings,
spreading them into the wind.
When enough days have passed
through their feathers,
they can pull themselves
into the air, bones
light and hollow with grace.
Sometimes they can circle near
the places they once loved.
If they find the eyes
of loved ones, though,
their bodies turn to mist,
swell into night sky
like the first moon.
JACK B. BELDELL FILL OUT THE WILD CULTURE SCRIBBLER'S QUESTIONNAIRE
1 What is your first memory and what does it tell you about your life at that time and your life at this time?
I have a really physical memory of walking unsteadily, reaching above my head to hold on to my father’s thumb. This memory makes an embarrassingly easy metaphor for my whole life.
2 Can you name a handful of artists in your field, or other fields, who have influenced you — who come to mind immediately?
I owe an incredible debt to the work of James Dickey, Jim Whitehead, Miller Williams, Heather Ross Miller, Steve Gadd, P.J. Harvey, John Coltrane, and (more recently) Joe Wilkins.
3 Where did you grow up, and did that place and your experience of it help form your sense about place and the environment in general?
I grew up in the Atchafalaya Basin of southeast Louisiana. I do as much as I can in my work to honor the place, its people, and its heritage. I can’t see myself outside the Acadian culture that produced me, and my poems are a chance to archive my appreciation for that culture.
4 If you were going away on a very long journey and you could only take four books — one poetry, one fiction, one non-fiction, one literary criticism — what would they be?
I’d probably pack all poetry, but for the sake of the exercise: James Dickey’s Poems, 1957-1967, William Faulkner’s The Sound and the Fury, Joseph Campbell’s The Hero with a Thousand Faces, and Gaston Bachelard’s Poetics of Space (untranslated so I could struggle with my French!).
5 What was your most keen interest between the ages of 10 and 12?
Marine biology. I worked at Port Fourchon on the Louisiana coast during the summers of those years helping with a grant to investigate the effects of offshore drilling on puffer fish population.
6 At what point did you discover your ability with poetry?
Before I entered graduate school in English/creative writing, I had only written a few imitation William Blake poems. One of my professors loaned me a copy of R.S. Gwynn’s The Drive-In, and the book really opened a world of contemporary narrative poetry to me. I started writing poems as soon as I finished Gwynn’s book and haven’t stopped since.
7 Do you have an ‘engine’ that drives your artistic practice, and if so, can you comment on it?
Editing a journal, Louisiana Literature, these past 25 years, has really fueled my own writing. Every day I encounter poems I wish I had written, and that aggravates my competitive nature enough to put me to work.
8 If you were to meet a person who seriously wants to do work in your field — someone who admires and resonates with the type of work you do, and they clearly have real talent — and they asked you for some general advice, what would that be?
Find a community of working writers. Their productivity, their energy, will fuel your own. In my case, working in sessions with writing partners has really held me accountable as a writer. There’s no putting off the work when someone you value is putting it in right next to you. Reading can fuel you as a writer, but there’s nothing better for your development as an artist than constant, hard work.
9 Do you have a current question or preoccupation that you could share with us?
Of late, my work has hovered around a tough question for me: How do we live and flourish after great loss?
10 What does the term ‘wild culture’ mean to you?
'Wild culture' exists on the fringe of what we can control in our lives. Forging a healthy relationship with this fringe is what gives life quality for me.
11 If you would like to ask yourself a final question, what would it be?
I would ask, What’s next?
JACK B. BEDELL is Professor of English and Coordinator of Creative Writing at Southeastern Louisiana University, where he also edits Louisiana Literature and directs the Louisiana Literature Press. His latest collections are Elliptic (Yellow Flag Press, 2016), Revenant (Blue Horse Press, 2016), and Bone-Hollow, True: New & Selected Poems (Texas Review Press, 2013). He has recently been appointed by Governor John Bel Edwards to serve as Louisiana Poet Laureate 2017-2019.
'Prayer Does Not Have To' was first published online in L'Éphémère Review.